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"you would have thought about them.. if you really loved me"

what can i do to let you know i love you so?

yesterday-today

yesterday:
the cousins came over and we kinda watched boogeyman halfway and got kicked out of the movie room cos the adults wanted to watch some stupid cantonese film.
so i got demoted into the living room.
watched this movie called tom yam goong
it was in thai and initially we couldn't get the subtitles on
and it was terribly annoying cos i didn't understand.
but as cliche as it sounds, a picture paints a thousand words.
the movie picture was enough to make you feel the pain.
make you laugh and even make you cry.
the good thing about the movie was the kongfu.
though it was a thai guy, the kongfu moves were cool
and when the bad people get hit, at least, it looks very very painful.
not like those that you can obviously tell that it's all for entertainment purposes.
the plot of the story was good too.
it was comical but at the last part, i almost teared.
i finally realised how cruel the human race is.
an elephant, that was once a brother of a man, because of humans
became nothing but a skeletal figure used to hang gold ornaments on it.
it was cruel. the just sucked the elephant dry.
it was really sad. and it made me think of the cruel world that we live in.
why do humans rule the earth?
is it because we are the only ones in the ability to invent?
i'm sure if animals were taught, they would be able to do it too.
but then again, i don't want to be an animal in captivation of the world.

today:
wee came over to meet my parents.
haha. funny boy lah. he was so scared.
but he was good. all went well.
my daddy was talking to him about phones and cars.
haha. quite cute.
then i went over to wee's house to bai nian.
his mummy constantly fed the both of us. with egg and rice. with abalones.
then i went home and lao yi came over for dinner.
haha. watched some jackie chan movie on tv then i decided to be a good girl and do my econs homework.
but now i'm currently stuck.
i so prefer micro econs to macro.
haii.. all the income and accounting. i prefer market structures.
haha. yup. toodles. tata!! (:

i'm coming backk

a dear friend of mine, dennis, wrote this song.
today, i understand the significance of this song.
i admit, i've backslided a lot. i've distanted myself from God Almighty.
today i'm going back to Him.

Lord i talk about how i want to be
an instrument for Your grace, mercy and love.
but almost everytime you give me a chance,
i seem to blow it.

i don't quite know
where to find the courage i need
but Lord, i trust that
You'll be the one working through me

take these hands, oh Lord, today
consume this heart, Jesus, i pray.
that whatever these hands find to do,
and for all my dreams that come true,
oh Lord, that You'll use them all for you.
oh Lord, that You'll use them all for you.

Lord i don't want to wait for trouble to be reminded
how much i really need You.
for i know there isn't one moment in time,
You aren't beside me

i have all to thank you for
but words can never be enough
so i pray that You'll use me
in all i think, do and say.

take these hands, oh Lord, today
consume this heart, Jesus, i pray
that whatever these hands find to do,
and for all my dreams that come true,
oh Lord, that you'll use them all for you.
oh Lord, that you'll use them all for you.

(: thankyou dennis for being touched by God so many years back.
and till today, still working in the lives of others.
my spiritual buddy so many years back.
and without knowing it now, you've impacted my life once again.
with the song that you write.
the song of love to our HeavenlyDaddy.
thankyou.

the sick girl

kenny's bbq was a blast with all the mas dance and fun dance.
pioneer mania!! (:
happy belated birthday tummy!! (:

so last night i woke up at 2.17am to be precise.
and i couldnt' sleep anymore after that.
the feeling of my stomach churning makes me wanna puke.
but there was no food to puke.
i drank up a cup of water and i puked it out.
damn. i went to school hoping things would be fine.
i puked out my milo in the morning and my stomach rejected everything.
high time i went to see a doctor. and i did.
i signed out from school with the dm accusing me of having make-up on to make myself paler.
and my skirt length and what not.
can't he let a sick girl rest.
daddy came to pick me up.
wee spent his whole free period keeping me company and keeping me warm.
lovelove <3
i went with mummy after my 3 hour nap to see dr koh.
and we waited for ages before we could consult him.
talk about inefficiency. my mummy&i could have died outside.
mummy and i had the same symptoms.
it was either a virus or food poisoning.
but not both of us could have the virus only one.
it was me - i had fever. cough. flu. vomitting. and what not.
even the doctor didn't know what was going on.
i'll be back in school tomorrow.
though the pills make me a drowsy person, i have to complete ms alice seah's work.
lest tutorials will be useless for me.

to all who cared for me.. THANKYOU!!

happy 3 months

happy three months babydear!!

wee knew that every sunday is church day for me
so he brought me out yesterday to spend our three months!! (:
we couldn't think of anything to do, so i decided to bring him shopping.
since i cannot shop for myself, i'll do the shopping for others.
baby bought an ashworth polo, topman collared top and a quiksilver collared top too.
he also bought a quiksilver pair of pants.
he looks so good in collared tops!! (: (: (:
i saw this roxy top that i totally adored.
it's decent!! yes decent indeed.
it's collared and long so i bare none of my skin.
it has turquoise and brown stripes.
mummy agreed to buy it for me (:
met rachel after wee's shopping trip.
she was like wearing all black - black shoes, black belt, super dark skirt, black top, black "jacket" and black eyeshadow.
i was wearing white - white slippers, white skirt, white belt, white top (:
we looked cute together.
wee kept insisting that we went to eat dinner together
reason? cos he felt like buying me dinner.
i've got a sweet boyfriend.
we wanted to go to marina south for steamboat but it was too far.
thought of spageddies but there was no taxis.
went to marche and the queue for forever.
ended up in cafe cartel. (:
nice food but we were too full to finish all the food.
felt kinda bad for not finishing the food.
wee took me home (: sweet little boy.
i love yeokahwee!!

wee gave me this note with a rose on it with a book that says "together forever"
he gave me japanese ice-cream with daisy low fat milk (:
and a pack of mini-ruffles!! (:
yay!!

the storm has past

 

sunshine.

i love when quarrels are over!! (:
it makes you want to smile, laugh, jump for joy.

babywee >> hey boy. i'm sorry for my emotional state of mind. i really didn't know what to do or how to feel? it really was hurtful and saddening. but only after we quarrel when i hear your effort, i know how much you tried. how much you wanted things to be good for me, for us. yet, i was stubborn, i didn't listen and even said that you were talking rubbish. i am truly sorry. it's just that time and time again, you say the same things until i don't know how to respond. but in the end, i responded in the wrong way. baby, you can do anything you like now, tell anyone anything. i mean if it does make you happier, go ahead. i'll be fine. i'll even be good. (: cos i know you do it with good intentions cos you don't want us to fight. you want everything to be good. *lovelove sweet thing. now everything's going to be fine. what's past is past. we don't bring anything back again. nothing before today is going to break us apart ever again <3<3

you can say that i'm rather happy now.
haha. i've been a good girl. ATTEMPTING to do my mathematical induction and numerical methods.
i've done quite some bit but it's not done yet.
i still got gp to do but latifah took my work home so i guess i'll use my free period to complete my work tomorrow morning.
the new school rules are being impletmented next week
wednesday i think. i sure hope the tailor gets my skirt done in time.

new school rules are as follows:
1. no use of drawstring
2. skirts must be 2cm above the knee at max.
3. tuck in blouses and shirts.
4. no ankle socks allowed. (eeeeee)
5. socks can only be white in colour
6. students without a school badge will be barred from school.

[note: any of these offences committed will be deemed as the highest level of offence. i.e truancy]

i promise you

a thousand tears that fall from the corner of the eye.
each of them travel a distance depending on their destination.
some experience a free fall others do a slide.
from the eyes to the ground or crawling down the cheeks.
either way, they fall.
all because of a thousand promises.
once made, now broken.
i don't want no promises made to me no more.
promises are one thing that i truly believe in.
why can't i find a guy who believes in it the same way i do?
the more i feel, the more i think.
eventually, the harder i cried.
i've never cried so hard for such a long time.
i spent so long standing in the rain.
hoping that the rain that fell from so high could wash away my tears
and maybe even the pain.
looking for an answer, a reason why we love.

tekong trip

tekong has stolen my brother away from me!!
to my brother, teckyen & marc >> take care of yourselves in bmt ya? though not all of you are in tekong, TAKE GOOD GOOD CARE alright? you all still have to come back and look after me. haha.

i miss my brother already.
though i thought that i would be happy without him.
i was lying to myself, cheating myself.
my brother, like my friend is part of my life.
the one who strums the guitar in the midnights.
the one who sings so loud that i can't sleep.
the one that steals the computer from me.
the one who annoys me when i'm on the phone.
the one that tells my mum stuff about me.
the one that can kill me.
the one that looked out for me since young.
i miss my brother.
it's only one day, but the house seems so empty without the music from his room.
behind me is the empty room that was once occupied by the pig.
no longer is there the person to bicker with me no more.
i feel empty.
i miss the pocky head that he entered the army with.
how i poked them and how he'd glare at me.
i'm waiting for hari raya haji. he's coming backk.
i miss my brother!!!

i skipped school today to send my brother off at tekong.
seems fun. though it's comforting to know that khorkhor's in good hands (:

partyy

foundation party was a blasttt!! (:
haha. faisal. nancy. meatball. jane. amelia. siying. juat. felicia came over.
we talked and talked.
about random things and things close to our hearts.
i've learnt something today.

"in this life, you will learn to know 4 people. the first person is yourself. the second is the person whom you love the most. the third is the person that loves you the most. the fourth is the person who you will marry"

and i guess i've probably met 3 out of 4 of those people.
i've had my good good cry after a message that i've received.

thanks faisal and nancy for being the lovely seniors you are.
thanks meatball for the wonderful advice.
thanks jane for sharing.
thanks siying, juat and felicia for trying to make me laugh with your natural behaviour.
i love the choir people.
seriously, what would i do without them?
with no regrets. i joined choir. found myself a buncha friends.

(: (: it was a blast!

sarah low
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